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[hiyakai]

it was

it also screwed with our memories, so we all had different lives there

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How are you handling it?

[hiyakai]

honestly?

not great

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Do you want to talk about it?

[hiyakai]

sure why not

i know the memories i have there aren't real
not all of them anyway
but i'm having trouble separating myself from them
emotionally

they basically took my life, stripped away the bulk of my experiences and changed me into someone i'm not
frankly, it makes me sick to my stomach
like they made a mockery of who i am, you know?

i haven't even begun to reconcile with the me here, so it's just an extra unnecessary layer of bullshit

[scrlies]

What did they turn you into that made you so uncomfortable?
Even if it was faked, it's still something that's in your head.
It's still part of you. But you can choose how you want to grow from it.

[hiyakai]

[ someone who'd cared. ]

a sad knockoff version of myself

i'm not going to let it change who i am
i know who i am and i like me

it's just annoying

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Then it sounds like you have it all figured out already.
What do you usually do when things are bothering you?

[hiyakai]

i fix it

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And how do you intend to fix this?

[hiyakai]

i'm going to drink
a lot

[ he doesn't have a humanity switch anymore, adam. it isn't something he can fix!! ]

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Whatever works for you.


( a bad way of handling one's problems but adam isn't going to judge. out loud. )

[hiyakai]

do you have a better idea?

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Drinking it away won't fix it.
But I'm not you, and I don't know you, so I don't know what works for you.

[hiyakai]

not drinking it away won't fix it either
so why not pick the option that's slightly more enjoyable?

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It doesn't seem very enjoyable to me, but to each their own.

[hiyakai]

so, what about you?

have you found a job here yet?

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I'm currently looking.
But given the state of everything, it makes it a little harder to find employment.

[hiyakai]

same boat

i'm thinking of working at a pub though

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Is there a particular reason?

[hiyakai]

i'll be surrounded by things i love
alcohol, pub food and hopefully good music

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Sounds ideal for you, then.
You ever work a service job before?

[hiyakai]

sure

i worked with a wide range of clienteles in the aerie

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Doing what?

[hiyakai]

bit of everything

i was sort of a jack of all trades